Take me as I Am

Thursday, January 26, 2006

izlyn's mp3

i lost it. i lost her mp3. i los my sister's mp3. darn it. why din i be more careful? ive yet to break the news to my fam. plannin to go sim lim wit abg to replace the mp3..

i cried for the lost mp3 just now. but wat can tears do? nothing. it can only make me feel a little bit better. so what's the use? some ITE boys thot i cried for a guy. hell no. how can i change my perspective abt ITE boys when they themselves cant prove others wrong?

ive got lots of options.

1) i dont tell my fam. i just fork out money on my own. replace a new one. i'll only tell them after i replace. but i cant live based on a lie.

2) tell my mom. n ask her for money frm my bank account. but i cant take the silent treatment she'll give me.

3) tell my dad. he'll be able to take it. i guess? then i pinjam his money first. but i cant pinjam his money. i dont like. maybe i can ask him to change my savings to notes. hrms.

4) tell izlyn. which i cant. she was so good to me just now. i cant bear to make her sad urhs. damn! da mp3 was her present for getting 1st in class!!

5) borrow my fren's money. den pay back ltr. but i cant. my frens have their own obligations too. cant just take it away frm them. summore, its their own money. so this option is totally out.

what am i gg to do? i dont noe. i need a hug. badly.

8:30 PM; be my prince Y