Take me as I Am

Monday, February 13, 2006

okay. now the confession part. like what i promised. i'll tell u a history bout each guy la kays. There's mark and thomas.

my history with mark
friends. normal, not so close kinda frens. i once liked him. but he sort of din return the fondness i had for him. so me, not being an egoistic bitch, still continued being frens with mark. but, he keeps dropping hints dat he likes me, but oni wanna get into a r/s after his O's. but OBVIOUSLY, i din get his hints..

im so oblivios(err..sp?) to ppl dropping hints. must tell me straightforward.

so yada yada yada, friendship continues wit him dropping obvious hints. den suddenly, after entering the new sch, i told him im eyeing thomas. den he tried to sound interested, but can sense anger in his voice. *oh ya.. dats d first time we talk on phone*

so yeah. dats basically it la. den he sort of angry at me. why i din wait for him.

like wth la sia. u din even tell me to wait for u. how was i supposed to noe? u rejected me, den now what? wth sia. urgh!!! --izyan is having her pms now. pls dont mind her--

my journey with thomas
i love this name btw! hahas. so yeah. recently got to know him. i had a crush on him waaay before. it was like, the first time i saw him, i was like...

"woah.. this guy..got an effect on me urhs...i think he's a good guy"

so yeah. that was the starting of it. den *chiing chiing chiing*.. fastforwarded uh. den all the rest, private uh.. hehs..i very malu wanna put it here.

so ya. end of my history with them. notice i used "history" with mark, but "journey" with thomas? hahs. got meaning one lah.

so yeah. my opinion is, where was mark when i needed someone by my side? where was mark when i really had nobody, and was looking for somebody? why din he confessed how he feels towards me before i met thomas? why must he only tell me that he likes me only after i've fallen to deep into thomas?

wth is this happening??

when i was all alone, desperate for someone, no one came. only latiff stood by my side as my friend n helped me pull through.

i only mention him coz he's a guy. as for my girlfrends, they are the sweetest sugas u can find in the whole world, universe, galaxy, any other places dat ive not yet mention.

so, as i was saying, mark only came after i realised that thomas really rock my heart... urh.. in dat sense laa.. understand understood kay..~ so yeah. im quite disappointed in mark.

hahas! now im so damn bloody happy with what i have now. even if i dont haf a valentine's date tmr, who cares? im happy man!!

hahaahhahahahahas.. i wan the whole world to know i love myself! i love life! i embrace life every morning. i look forward to breathe the morning air everytime i go to sleep..

and as u can see, im exaggerating too. hehs. okies. im happy. but i wanna cry. coz of happiness. im such a crybaby. nowadays only.

sending my greatest hug n smoochable kiss to u!!

eyzee out

ps: tmr val's day. izlyn's bdae too. wth shud i gt her??

((supposed to b posted on 13th jan))

10:58 PM; be my prince Y