Take me as I Am

Wednesday, March 01, 2006

make up your mind

im posting this while listening to my blog's song. i think its nice. dont you? hehes. thanks farah for the recommendation. mwacks

anw, todae, im gonna let all my feelings out. im not afraid of the outcome. im tired of pretending and hiding anyway.

okay. im caught in this situation.

micheal came back n said he loves me. okay. maybe i do feel the same way bout him too. maybe i dont?. who knows. but we've known each other since we were in sec 1 and we were not frm the same sch. same CCA obviously. he just broke up with his ex. he said he's losing feelings for her. okay i except that. now, im talking to him on the phone every night. i feel so bad. i feel like im betraying thomas.

i cant possible love n really like someone at the same time can i?

i question love. what is it actually? and i strongly believe that there is no such thing as true love before i reach 21. its only puppy love. cinta monyet they say.

so yah. shud i leave one and go for the other, or shud i just leave both? i feel like doing the 2nd one.. infact, i feel like shutting the world and just go somewhere..

thomas.. i really like him lah. i cant deny that. and its like a fairytale come true. u fall for someone, secretly, that someone is falling for you too. but wake up dear.. this is real life. will everything haf a happy ending? i really do not wish to hurt thomas. i realised we shared more differences than similarities. omg.. i really dont know.

i want to cry. i really need to cry. shit. what a crybaby. i din haf a good cry for like days only. shit shit shit shit shit. i cant take it anymore lahs. i need to do something. anything.!!!!

izyan shitting off.

OH MY GOD!!

8:21 PM; be my prince Y