our love story.
remember when i said that i'll write our love story once you've given up? well, u are giving up now, so i shall blog about it.it started out when i was down on my love life, and attended millennia for the 3 months thing. reason being, i thot i cud find someone new, and i had nothing better to do anyway. so no harm trying out.
my friend found her one. i did not. and yes. i got quite bored walking aimlessly in school and not paying attention to the surrounding. even eye contact with the guys are so normal. as in there's no current down my spine or anything.
thats how everything went, until i met my ex-senior, Fth, who used to be in east spring. he had a fren beside him. so there i was, thinking the eye contact would be like any normal one, and i was being friendly to the millennia seniors, so i made *what i thot was* normal eye contact with my Fth's friend.
but this one was different. it was special. he din even have to smile. that single eye contact made me stood still, i had butterflies in my stomach, i cudnt turn away from him.
but i did. why? coz my cheeks felt hot. i was shy. but why was i? baahs. he din even smile at me. so i talked to my senior for awhile, and walked to canteen, thinking what happened.
so went online, one of my friend, fth's fren too, chatted with me. and i asked him bout fth's millennia friend. whom i thot was kinda cute. den my friend told me his name. i was like;
"serious uh? u noe him meh? cant be him lahs. hahas. but nice name though. "
then the next day, Fth called out to me. i was unsure why he did that. all he told me was that his fren, *the special eye contact guy* is at the canteen, do i wanna meet him or not. of course i said no. i was in a rush, i was too shy to see the guy again, and i thot it was just a stupid eye contact anyway. nothing more.
then, things started to heat up. Fth would be with his friend, and he would talk to me in sch, and i cudnt face his friend. Then my friend, Shd, sort of ganged up with Fth to matchmake me and that guy. yes, i was against it, coz like i said, stupid eye connection which felt special.
then one incident, they sorta forced me to sit beside that guy. yes, simple task. but it was difficult for me. i manage to wriggle my way out of that situation. okay. i was safe.
then millennia had a floorball match with College East, so i went. of course, the guy was the goalie for the match and i wanted to watch him. not that he noes. coz my friends were in the match too, so he might think i came for my friends but i only wanted to see him play.
so in the bus, i was alone, *details not impt here* den nisa got his number. at first i did not wanna take it. coz i din want to get deep. at first i turned down the idea of having his number, but i gave in, and got his no. not that he know of. he only noe nisa n Shd has his no. den he sat behind be during the journey to College East. boy, was i delighted owat.
me, Shd n nisa had to go off early, so we went off. i whispered a goodbye to him. he din hear, duuh. as i was walking off, one of the girls told me this;
"hey, he was looking at u leave. did u see? u shud've said good game n goodbye ya know."
and yes, i did not believe. im not sure if i believe it now or not too. hahas. den that night, i asked Shd to msged him a good game played. so she did, they msged each other, and he got hold of my no. Shd was the one who offered it. okay.
he took 3 days to msg me. hahas. kinda cute. i was walking home with ain at 5.+ when he msged. me n ain screamed when we saw his name.* i already saved his no.*
i acted stupid. not knowing who he was. coz i did not want him to know how i really felt and that i have his no. so he gave me his friendster and msn.
instantly, i was online using ain's laptop in my room. it was a short, normal talk. and i thot, gee, i can never get along with this guy coz he seems uninterested talking to me. so ookay fine. but i was elated that we talked.
chats, after chats i realised we are the exact opposite of each other. he loves slow music, i love fast. he loves fantasy movies, i hate them. i love horror movies, he hates them. so yeah. i thot we were going nowhere.
until, i felt he was like unfolding infront of me. eventhough we had more differences than similarities, something somewhere somehow told us to just chat about stuff. sometimes both of us will get quiet, then after awhile, we'll get talking again. strange world huh?
from the cold, few-words, mysterious guy i once knew back then, he's now more open, talks alot, and a good person to be with actually.
and he did confess his feelings, and i did too. he asked for smth, i said no. after that, he went deeper. i felt deeper too. but i cant grant him that something he asks for. i cant. i simply dont want to.
i guess, he wants to forget that someone loves, and im going to help him do that. eventhough he said he doesnt want to, wouldnt it be nicer if he had someone who could give him something that he wants?
u cant lose what u never had. can you?
Eyzee`Anne`Isabelle