Take me as I Am

Thursday, March 02, 2006

throw at me anything ya want

yeaps. i totally messed up my life. its nothing that im proud of. i CAN delete the earlier post. but wats the use anw? no point hiding away what i feel rite?

as much as i want to be with him, i can possibly tell him that. im afraid of what the future might hold. im afraid of heartbreaks. ooh yeah. if there was a scientific name for phobia of heartbreaks, im suffering from that.

heartbreakophobia.

thats what im gonna call it. my new phobia. i haf ailurophobia. which means fear of cats. its a scientific name. check it out on phobialist.com.

oh yes! ive found out the scientific name which is close to my 'heartbreakophobia'.

androphobia and arrhenphobia.

which means fear of men. hahs! im not really afraid of them lah. why shud i? bwahahas. whatever lah.

so as i was saying. i messed up my life. and i really wanna be with him. its smth that even he himself wont know. but lets just see when the term starts and i'll be seeing more of him. *I HOPE*

then from there we'll see where it takes off. hopefully for the better. but nobody noes now. i havent told anyone yet bout my decisions. and i dont intend to make it such a big thing.

now, ive let go of both. regrets? alot of them. dun wish to put it here coz its too personal.

havent meet up wit the babes for a few days now. haish.. craving to talk to someone my age. alah. im simple terms, i miss them alot now. how am i ever going to survive in poly when i keep thinking bout them??

basically, todae was sucky. my headache came back. i think there might be smth wrong with my head or i just need to exercise!!!

its been like..2 mths since i last ran or jog or what. and i need to exercise.

"exercising gives you endorphins. endorphins make you happy." as quoted from LEGALLY BLONDE.

to sum up for todae..

ive made a total mess out of a small thing. and now im more prepared than ever. waht life throws at me, im prepared to take it. hell yeah.

till den. take care of urself and always watch wat u say.

SMOOCHIES

HRH Princess Eyzee`Anne`Isabelle
holding on to her dream.

7:30 PM; be my prince Y