Take me as I Am

Friday, March 03, 2006

WHAT IN THE WORLD!!

IM FUCKED UP!!

i got bloody mechatronics. wth!! i put it in my choices coz i wanted aerospace engineering! nowwww... i got into a bloody course with alot of computer-related stuff which I REALLY DONT WANT!!

i want to opt out. i dun care. but i discuss wit my parents first lah.

rais said two of his male pri sch frens gg to mecha at tp. dats my course lah. im fucked up. i dont think i can brainwash myself into thinking that mecha is good...

i mean i thot it was interesting n stuff. bt i din really plan out my year properly. i oni planned for 2nd year. which is the aerospace engineering which i want.

okay. appeal or not? even if i DO appeal, where do i go? i cant possibly go to tourism, do u think they accept 21 pnts? i dun think so. I KNOW THEY DONT!

im at my wits end la.

i dont know what to do,

i dont know where to go,

the course that im offered is mainly bout computers.

i hate computers.

i only know monitor,

cpu,

modem,

printer,

speaker.

THATS IT!

when i said u can throw at me anything, i din mean a lousy course. its not lousy. its jus that I HAF NO INTEREST IN THE FIRST YEAR AT ALL!!

this goes to show how easy u can brainwash me within a few hours n warm smiles.

the lecturer said it was good, yada yada yada. and of course. the way he said it. IT WAS GOOD. noe, i kena hit my reality. its not good. for some ppl but not for me.

i need to work wit ppl!! not machines!!

how am i ever going to chase that dream of being a psychologist?? how?!?!

maybe a part-time diploma will do.

hrms.

im an engineer-cum-psychologist.

aint that nice. lets keep my mind calm thinking that way.

izyan fucked up.

11:29 AM; be my prince Y