tsk. bad sister izy! bad sister!
okay. im so damn guilty right now that no amount of marshmellows can make me feel less guilty. walao. okay here's what happen.
as usual, every tuesday, i will fetch izlyn from her student care n send her to her sch for her MALAY DANCE (omg! she in md. i kena kicked out. gues its the tradition. hehs.) okay. my neighbour is also in malay dance, but we did not want to trouble them to send izlyn to school, so i was the one who sent her lahs.
okay. on the way there, we met our neighbour iqah, then she offered izlyn a ride home later when they finished their malay dance. i was like..."fuuuhh... no need go out again". so i told izlyn if she wanted that ride home, call me. anything oso just call me.
her malay dance finished at 4.45. so at 4.45, i was still at home. watching tv, thinking izlyn was already on the way to student care lahs. then at 5.20, still havent receive her call yet. i panic abit, called mom, asked to ask student care izlyn there onot.
then 5 mins later, mom called back with a effing sad voice. sounds WAAY TO disappointed lahs in me. she said izlyn not at student care. all i wanted to do was breakdown n orb izlyn to student care, but i know thats not possible, so yah. i rushed, luckily when i arrived at bstop, the bus was there already.
THANK GOD. ALHAMDULILLAH.
on the way there, i received alot of private nos callin me n hanging up. instantly i realised that maybe lyn dun haf money to call me, so she just used the public phone, and u know how those phones work lahs.
then i walked pretty darn fast up n down the bridge.. i checked the sch from outside, izlyn was not der.. in my head... fuck. where the hell is she?
then across the road, i saw her at the mama shop. biting her upper lip, makin her way slowly towards me. i dashed across the road to check on my lil sis. her eyes were damn red lah. but she was smiling.
OH MY GOD! NOTHING CAN EXPRESS HOW GUILTY I FELT. I JUST FELT LIKE EMBRACING HER AND TELL HER IM DAMN SORRY AND ASK FOR HER FORGIVENESS.
but i noe. so dramatic. so i hugged her and said sorry and asked her if she cried. stupid qn, i know.
she was oh..so forgiving. thats what i love bout my lil sis lah. im still feeling as guilty as ever lah. now the next paragraph, dont mind me. i wanna express how i really feel lahs.
WALAO IZYAN. WHAT A BAD STUPID SISTER U ARE SIAAA. UR LIL SIS WAS WAITING FOR U IN TEARS AT A MAMA SHOP, WITH NO MONEY. WHAT IF SHE WAS KIDNAPPED? YOU GOING TO TAKE FULL RESPONSIBILITY? FUCK. U CANT EVEN TAKE CARE OF URSELF. SHE RAN OUT OF SCHOOL JUST SO SHE WOULDNT HAVE TO FACE THE GUARDS WHILE WAITING FOR YOU. SHE RAN OUT OF SCHOOL WHILE THE GUARDS WHERE BUSY TALKING TO EACH OTHER. DO U EVEN CARE SCARED SHE FELT? SHE WAS SCARED SHE KENA KIDNAPPED. DO U EVEN CARE? SHE IS UR SISTER AFTER ALL. CANT U BE MORE RESPONSIBLE? FUCK U IZYAN.
Eyzee`Anne`Isabelle