you are beautiful
okay. i just watched oprah winfrey show. and its about 3 ppl who haf BDD. Body Demorph Deficiency?? i dunno lahs. meaning the ppl suffering from it thinks that they are not beautiful and when they look inside the mirror, they see a monster, or someone they dont like. they want to change their features. clearly, this is a psychiatric problem.
i watched the show and thought to myself. if that beautiful woman and gorgeous guy thot they are ugly, THAT WHERE DO I STAND?? if they are ugly, im like below the ugly standard sia. im having doubts about how good i look. do i even look good?
then again, its not about the looks that matter. coz ultimately, the person will still fall in love with you because of ur charming personality. walao. do i even haf the personality? see. this is where i question the world and also myself.
do i have what it takes to be someone that im actually in love with? sheesh. i dunnoe. heck, my friends are waay better looking than me. tsk. do i sound like i haf BDD? hahs. not that serious. i just wanna appear good and be good. dun have to be drop-dead gorgeous lahs. just acceptable.
since primary school, im convinced im not actually one of the good-looking ppl around. (those who were with me in pri sch can understand that). so it still follows up to sec school. and to poly, and to adulthood. no matter how many compliments i get, even if i get kembang owat, im sure they are only saying that to make me feel better.
and all i can say is thank you for making me feel better.
sometimes i wonder if those words that come out from guys mouth are sincere onot. tsk. my thoughts. its true bout my horoscope reading then;
Easy to talk to, though hard to understand. Thinks far with vision, yet
complicated to know.
haha. true huh? i think, but i think its all complicated for u ppl to know. my star sign also says " the most good-lookin among all the other months" . walao. serious onot sia. anw, i think i have serious self-esteem problems. walao.
unlike shida, she's sure that she's gorgeously beautiful. and yeah. she has a charming character. walao. what about me? tsk.
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