Take me as I Am

Thursday, June 08, 2006

overly afraid.

so todae dad woke me up. he thot i had classes. but HOLIDAYS ARE NOW HERE. HAH HAH HAH. okay. no big diff anyway. i love school.

so got up, called boyfie. and met boyfie. then both went to tamp interch to meet wit the lil pies n lil plums. as usual, most of em were late. when boyfie n me arrived, only 4 were there. sheeshness. guess i was being the over-sensitive me which always feels all wrong and worried. lil pies managed to calm me down.

orh. forgot to mention. SU WAS DER TOO!! and so was saiful. the ship-man. grr.

then went to buy tix.. then went to eat at food cult. this was where a friend really pissed me. just coz i haf a boyfie now, doesnt mean they haf to leave us alone all the time rites. then he *the friend* was already seated beside us. dun haf to move ur table wat. so yeah. i was pissed. and summore wit my over-sensitive mood. i took some time to calm down.

urgh. angry angry angry.

then saw Mr Khan n wifey. hehes. they oso watching the Omen. but we din noe where they were seated. so the lil pies were making a joke. what if they were seated beside me n boyfie. hahas. funny thinking.

then. BAM!! who else was der beside my seat, but mr khan n wifey. funny siaaaa!!~ we were seated at the 4 seater row. we occupied 4 rows. includin Mr n Mrs Khan. hahas. funny to me leeys.

then after the movie ended, we had problems deciding where to go next.. so decided to meet farah up and then just go lepak.

under this one block, all my worries came out. maybe not how i wanted it to sound like, but at least my worries came out. for that, THANKS MY LIL SUGAR PIES..!~

but im still living in fear. its not easy to get rid of this fear instantly. i need strength, i need time to calm down my insides. i kept assuring myself, but it still doesnt work. this is where mind cannot take over matter. its either this, or im thinking and worrying too much. thats what girlfriends say. but i cant ignore the constant worrying. and i just cant shut up these thoughts. please please please assure me that you're still there. there's alot i wanna say, but i just cant find the right moment yet. so we'll see how everything turns out.

Eyzee`Akel`Isabelle
i want you so bad.

9:39 PM; be my prince Y