Take me as I Am

Tuesday, July 18, 2006

kau tersenyum manja

what the hell. i tried to upload pics again, but cudnt. wats wrong? i just have so much pictures to share. haaaaaiiyaa. okay nevermind.

TITISAN ROCKS THE WORLD.

seriously. yesterday was emotional. i love.

i was *grumpy*, *angry*, *sad*, *hurt*, *rejected*, *lonely*. but i was holding back my tears. a few escaped, but i was still holding it back. nak ikotkan hati, nak melalak satu skola. tapi image pun kene maintain.

so i held everything back ; eventhough some managed to escape. i wouldnt call that crying though. its just a few tears falling.

but TITISAN. the climax of the day......

firstly it started with a few warm ups done by Hydil. after that we moved on to voice projection which is super cool, i like. and then we on music, and danced like mad. i did not lah. coz im a bad dancer, and it was too open.

at koi pond sia. paisey aku.

then had movements thingy which was supposed to be serious, but i just cudnt be. so yeah.

then i love this part. we had this ENERGY ting. the objective is to pass your energy to the person beside you. and i was filled with different kinds of energy, anger, frustration, sadness. and all ya know.

so we had to sit in a tight circle (knee to knee) , hold hands, close our eyes, and all of us haf to tell a sad story each. one by one, each passed. we cried together. at koi pond.

we.
TITISAN.
shared our tears with each other.
listening to each other's stories.

our hands enclosed in the circle.
passing our sadness on.
sharing the burden.
and thus, it lessens the weight.

I COULD'VE SAID MORE ABOUT YOU. BUT I JUST COULDNT. NOT BECAUSE I COULDNT BEAR TO DO IT. OR DONT WANT TO. I JUST DIDNT KNOW HOW.

after that, the energy we were supposed to pass was an angry one. ONE BY ONE AGAIN. we shouted, screamed our lungs out.

yelling together to release all the emotions kept inside. IT FELT GOOD. the feeling of pure relieveness. a feeling i've never felt since months after meeting you.

so as usual, yesterday's titisan ROCKS THE WORLD. or my world at least.

so today, went to school. i was late as normal in meeting hajar. went to eat. then went for DFUND. we had to team up. so i paired up with Rahu n AMAZINGLY, we were the first ones to complete the task.

i swear without him, i know nuts about the project.

went to lecture. which i felt really INSECURE. then went to hajar's CKT lecture. which was better. so i din have to sit in that boring lecture hall lah.

went lib.. i was no in a happy energy mode yet. so yeah. went to eat honeydew sago at itas.

which cheered me up. other than Bo's lame yet funny jokes that is. i still cant believe that guy is actually a joker sia.

bobai. weeee~ giler aku.

then went to eat with family. mom n dad invited ain along. so we ate together. then i told dad. when ppl look at our family with ain, they would be thinking that we're twins. haha. then dad said. no lah. family of triplets.

meaning my mom is our triplet la. since ppl say me n my mom look the same. then dad also said... "dari blakang, nampak mcm triplets.. dari depan, ALAMAKK" ... haha. klakar man to me..

translated, : "from behind look like triplets..from infront, ALAMAK".. funny sia to me.

so that was it lah. mom bought me n ain the same thing. this belt thingy which im in love with and cant wait to wear.

TOMMORROW IM NOT GOING TO SCHOOL. i dont have loa or what. I JUST DONT WANNA COME SCHOOL. thats all..

Eyzee`Anne`Isabelle
dont want your hand this time.
i'll save myself.

tormented daily ; defeated by you.

9:34 PM; be my prince Y