Take me as I Am

Monday, August 07, 2006

WHAT THE FUCK LAH.

aku tak percaya lagi. dengan apa yang kau beri.
aku tak percaya lagi, akan guna matahari.

im totally confused now. why am i affected anyway? what the hell lah seriously. okay im pissed off. i was planning to do my OP, but this really pisses me off. WHY DIDNT YOU TELL ME?

i was genuinely happy since friday ;
after watching LAKEHOUSE.
and i was keeping this happy momentum on SATURDAY.
the girls day out.
and i'm still happy today. STUDYING.

now, at 12 mn, im grumpy.
im not supposed to be affected, BUT I AM!

kau. dont feel like going lecture tomorrow.
i dont even wanna hear what he got to say lor.

yes im selfish.

make me think that he did that for the best. make me believe that he knows what he's doing. make everything work out. make sure he's not playing with anyone. make sure that everyone is okay with it. make sure nothing changes. make sure he's still that abang i know. MAKE SURE.

why am i affected again?
God knows.

anyways. today was absolutely fantastic. if not for that something on 12mn.

went out with my family. i was forced to do it. hees. went to eat at Makmur. that was by far, my most pathetic lunch ever. i had Aglio Olio and strawberry milkshake. and both of them sucked. how sucky it is to have a sucky lunch, as well as a sucky drink? sheesh.

then went around Geylang. my family actually had a race up the overhead bridge. Mom started the race. Followed by Izlyn, den Me, den Ayah. of cus Ayah won laah. we must've looked funny. running up the stairs. haaaaahs.

then went home, fell asleep instantly. must be something from Makmur.

went out again to study with ain n hafiz.

ended up watching videos. but i did study ookaaaay. took pics, which was pretty cute to me lah. but i cant upload them now. will do in the next entry.

IM STILL CONFUSED.
PISSED.
but im trying to calm down.

Hanya Tuhan saja tahu betapa terok nyer this affects me. and also the reason why it affects me so much.

Eyzee`Anne`Isabelle
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