Take me as I Am

Sunday, December 10, 2006

i'll show you my superior side.

i know its really wrong to have fallen for you and all. but i cant stop it from happening right? i mean i didnt know about it, until my friends told me. like seriously, after having a simple crush on you which developed into something more in like, (don't knw how many mths but since last sem) mths, i cant step out of it quickly.

i don't even know if i want to step out of it. cause you're the fantasy. the guy. i wouldnt say the one yet cause its still to early. and if ever you were to break a heart, i'll call you my monster.

it doesnt hurt me to know that i can never have you. infact, its pretty thrilling. its like, every little thing you do, makes me totally awed. even a slightest "jiggle" that you do laas.

now, this is a totally different topic.

i hate being wronged. and this tim when i'm being wronged now, i have no control over it. have you ever spared a thought about my feelings for you? its not even that strong okay. i totally don't think you're the kind of guy i would date. much more, have for a boyfriend.

i mean, cmon. you? puh-leese.

my mistake was being there for you. thats all. and please get it straight. i am not CRAZY about you. please, i have jingly-wingly-boy who was on my mind (eventhough not always) , when i was close with you okay.
to me lah, its good enough that i helped you, and good enough that i was quiet even when i was DAMNED wrong.

but you had to make matters worse.

face it, you're not a guy who has balls. and i simply cannot stand ball-less guys. i thought of you as my good friend. but u turned your back against me.

you turned your story against me. have you ever told people about YOUR side of the bad story? *trying my best not to swear at you now* .

if you happen to find your balls somewhere in the dumpster, do APOLOGISE to me? yes, i am ASKING YOU to apologise. oh sorry. please dont be hurt by that?

(all i need right now is a re-assuring advice from jingly-wingly. at least even by saying "relax k?" , it calms down my total nervous system. am i ALREADY needing you? omg. this is serious.)

get the hell out of my mind. you ball-less freak.

9:55 PM; be my prince Y