Take me as I Am

Thursday, December 28, 2006

the silent heartbreak

i read his girl's blog. and the more i find out about their past, the more guilty i felt for falling for him. this is so FRUSTRATING. okay. i'm strong enough now to let you go and be happy. will u be strong for me too? i wont shed any tears for you. cause i know you dont want me to cry.

once was, okay, i can handle it.
twice was like, omg, its repeating and i hate being caught in the middle.
thrice is way too much.

i wont be repeating the same mistake AGAIN.

im not affected by my leaving u. i feel contented that now we know whats best for us. and i mean the THREE of us. i will and definitely will constantly think about you, wanting you. but i wont let that affect my decision.

OH PLLEEAASSSEEEEEEEE BABY.

i just wanted to type tt out. for no apparent reason.

i'll look at you from far, i'll feel you from far, i'll imagine US from far. but never once will i tell you what i exactly feel. cause i know you wont be able to handle it. someone's gotta be strong for the other person.

this so suck. i will make a promise to myself that i wont cry.

i'll miss the early-morning-talk
i'll miss your songs.
i'll wish for the day you sing the song FOR me and not TO me.
i'll miss the cute codewords we use when we're together.
i'll miss the empty talks that we always have in the 3hrs talk.
i'll miss the tickles. the smiles. the sorrys. the YOU.
i'll miss my jingly wingly boy.
no more tingly wingly girl.

can i have a hug? please say no. it'll make me feel better.
remember. YOU & HER are perfect for each other.
NEVER DOUBT THAT.

Eyzee`Anne`Isabelle
if i'm not your everything.
then i'll be your nothing.
thanks JP.

was it love i felt or was it just affection?

8:09 PM; be my prince Y