sometimes, when you think again...
i can barely type cause of the strenous pioneering the FIVE of us did just now. but i still am not sleepy, just tired. today was a satisfying day for me lah at least.
yesterday went home late, and due to certain reasons, i slept later than expected. but anyways, due to that, i woke up late today. that was GAAAAHHHH for me lahs. but anyways today didnt intend to do my hair nice2. just tie laa.
who gonna see anyway? haha.
started pioneering with a VERY slow speed and alot of facial expression. most of us havent had breakfast, so that was the reason why we were abit blur and
woozy(our favourite word for the first half of the day).
after lunch, (which was superrrbbbb. THANK YOU MR KHAN) we started again on pioneering, with MORE strength and MORE laughter. i realised, only with laughter and some crapping around, then the work is not so strenous.
Syafiq left halfway and we had some disturbance halfway too.
with only 4 manpower, (3 girls 1 guy) we still DID IT!!! hahahaha. superb la i tell you. i was super satisfied. but only from front view. so if we ventures can do it, the boys SURELY can with enough manpower.
i dont even know how to do a 1 flagpole.
what more a 3-2-1 flagpole.
but we sure managed to build a STRUCTURE. that was the most satisfying thing i've ever done in the month. (=
i've been feeling satisfied most of the time. haha.
random thoughts.sometimes, it really doesnt pay to be kind. you give someone face, and help them, they step on your head and really crush them. sometimes i wonder too why do i give too much face. is it because i care about what others think? or is it because i dont know my limits when helping people? to be frank, i'm disappointed in myself on Saturday. After getting back our stuff. but i think again, i wasnt really my fault as i did not foresee that the person would do that. but ironically enough, it is my fault cause i did not see that coming. and because of that, i'm the one at the losing end. i'm pissed off. but, in a positive thinking, this actually teaches me a lesson; before helping others, think about helping yourself first.same theory like; love yourself before you can love others.this may sound dramatic. but i couldnt express my disappointment in words. frankly, i wanted to cry and whine. but whats the use? stay calm and focus on how to get over this problem. and everything will be fine.
"Am i up to standard? " sometimes i ask myself. but NEVER(or at least i try) will i give up.
Now you got me thinking that i'm actually worthless.
Eyzee`Anne`Isabelle