Take me as I Am

Sunday, June 17, 2007

que sera sera

after coming back from holidays on friday in the evening, i received news of my aunt passing away later at night. we packed our bags and left the country yet again. like what my dad said " ink immigration belum kering, da kene patah balik"

but in a good way though.

She passed away on friday. We cousins were supposed to go to her place in JB on Saturday for a bbq and to visit her. guess we were too late. While the whole house slept their way through the night, i was sitting outside their porch, pondering about life and death. and what i could do to improve my life, so that i will be happy in the hereafter.

raja, i read your blog time and again. i wont hide that. (: and i know that guy you're talking about is Huzaifah. i would lie if i said it didnt hurt me. cause it badly did. for now, he's still my boyfriend. eventhough you and him have something going on already. and i'm not angry or neither am i hating you. and this time round, i'm not lying.

huzaifah, things are rough, and you still havent gotten over raja. i was the other girl perhaps. but i want you to think back carefully. you were the one who spotted me and made US happen. i never initiated anything. i even wanted to stop all this so you can be with raja. but what did you say? those words are fresh in my mind.

eventhough you havent got over her, i'm willing to give you time to get over her. 1 week when i was away, you hurt me bad. but, i forgive you. cause i love you and i a, willing to give you a 2nd chance. honey, you know whats right, and wrong. and you know what will hurt me real bad.

ask me why i'm so forgiving? cause i love you.

friends tell me to cry and that its okay. yupp. its true that its okay. but i hate the feeling of hopelessness and everything in life has gone wrong. i will make things right again, with Allah's blessing and help.

He will show me the right path and give me the courage to face each new day with an open mind. He will be the One blessing me with friends that i know will pull me up when im slowly slipping away. Oh Allah, i thank You for the love You've shown and for giving me a strong mind and soul. thank You for blessing me with friends that have shown their love. thank You for the happiness that you gave me.

Oh Allah, show me the true meaning of happiness, the same i wish for my family and friends.

Oh Allah, bless Rohani Bte Yunus soul. Forgive her for her wrongdoings Ya Allah.

~this was a random post early in the morning. (:

12:47 PM; be my prince Y