singlehood
i'm back to singlehood again on the 19th coming on 20th June 2007.
why do my break-ups always end during June?
anyway, after the break up, people ask, "asal macam happy?", "asal tak sedih?". haha. well, the main reason being, i've had enough sadness in a day and i dont wanna continue it.
think carefully. do you seriously see the point in being sad? nothing can be done when you're feeling down and gloomy. YES, of course i will have my quiet moments. but i'm just thinking. and yes, i'll be upset about stuff and all. BUT, ultimately, its how i get through my days.
and i think i'm doing just fine.
now, i'm focusing to help this friend of mine. i NEVER want to see this friend go through what my little love one went through. its tough when you hate yourself.
so, i'm gonna help that friend change it. not expecting any rewards whatsoever dude. (:
i've been going out alot these past few days. and nobody's complaining. OKAY GOOD. i cant stay at home cause its booorriiinngg. school is starting and i cant wait. espiecally for Public Speaking. we got 2 projects coming up and i cant wait to talk. HAHA.
For all these, i thank my friends for helping me through this. i thank my lovely ladyfriends for being there for me and picking, no pulling, me up when i was down at the bottom pit. i thank my malefriends for being the strong ones and letting me see another light through this break-up. thanks for being the strong pillar when i was the weak one. I'm weak, its true. But I'll just get stronger everyday. (:For all these, in the end, its HIM who we thank. Thank You Allah for guiding me through this tough phase. Thank You for giving me the experience. aku adalah hambaMu yang lemah, Ya Allah. berikanlah ku semangat dan kuatkan lah iman ku untuk menjalani hidupku dengan penuh makna, Ya Allah. Ya Allah, aku bersyukur kepadaMu. Alhamdulillah.Syukur, syukur, syukur, YA ALLAH.
Syukur, Alhamdulillah..
heees.
Ask me if i hate anyone during this period. the answer will be a NO. alaah whats the point of hating. kiter sepatutnyer merapatkan lagi silaturrahim tau. so, its hard for me to HATE cause, its just hard lah.
well, princesses dont hate. (: HOHO.
OH ANYWAY. my lovely big brother called yesterday. macam sweet la gitu kirekan. padahal2. alah but still appreciated that lah. AND he gave me new ideas and another ray of light for me. haha. eventhough its been months since we last had a good conversation. BUT, i love him still.
Sayang dik sayang,Adinda yang ku sayang.Laguku dendang lenamu kan ku dendang.Dengar lah dengar irama bak lelayang,Buat bekalan zaman gemilang.Dengar lah dengar lagu yang ku dendangkan,Dondang sayang.Sayang dinda sayang,Malam ku dendangkan dondang sayang,Buat dodoi Yan agar kau terlena.Warisan budaya hazanah(?) ibunda,Jangan biarkan warnanya menghilang.the words my self-aclaimed brother always sing to me every night. now thats my ringtone for him. and i always get a shock when he calls. HOHO.
i wonder if people wonder why i never break down and cry.
i wonder if people want to see me get hurt so bad.
i wonder if people cant wait to see me becoming the weak person.
cause frankly, I am weak. i DO cry okay, i'm human after all. but its just that i dont see that point of being all whiny and psychotic about a small thing. ANW, i'm only 18.
not saying that i've completely got over him. i'm just looking forward to my life. yeah yeah.
"Trial and error period" , said Hajar. haha. okay laaa.i tried, and i erred. no time to make ammendments and get better.
but for now, i'm gonna lay low for awhile. and just look forward to school every single day. TP people are friendly people. (:
i've pretty much have plans for today all the way until i start school. COOL. i've never been a planner.
ANYWAY. too wordy i guess i better get ready.
wanna meet the best girl any guy can ever wish for.
and the best guy any girl can wish for. HAHA.
okay la take care all.
Sometimes, your mind gets the better of you.BUT, its YOUR mind. don't let it hurt you. (:
Eyzee`Anne`Isabelle